Monday, November 26, 2012


I have been thinking things are going along pretty smooth with Mom recently. She seems to be having her pain managed well. She has not been "needy" and want lots of stuff brought to her or done for her. Has been asking the aids or doing it herself.

But this evening she decides to want to be informed on things she has skipped before. Ask how much her rent there was.  Told her more that she would like. She ask about the girls that clean her room and wanted to know who paid for that.

She wants to think things are free, not costing her anything or she might as well be at home since she owns it. Even though she cannot get herself, meals or do much for herself.  She has the deluded idea that she does everything for herself and needs no help.

And there is no use trying to change her mind. If you start asking about the things she does not have to do herself, she  still thinks she could if she had to.

Mostly it is a subject just best skirted around,,,talk about the weather , the meals , just anything but reality.

But every once in awhile she has momemts of clarity where her one and only love her money comes to mind. She wants to know how it is doing how fast it is going, and if it is growing.  Well what can I do but lie like an ass or divert her.  Her money has been gone for many months and she is on STate Aid.  Am trying to sell the house and then she can pay with what comes from it til it runs out.

She was ranting today because she bought and paid for a house and is out there paying rent.  And I am sure in her mind her CD s are still sitting there too.

I am trying my best to allow her to live out the rest of her life without knowing she is broke. But she get  so hateful and mean about me making her stay there, and she pushes my buttons. 

I had to get out of there today because I was this close to just laying her finances out there and letting the chips fall. Letting her soak in the situation she has let herself get into by not listening to me years ago.

I walked away. She would just get more mean and hateful and blame me for using her money to keep her there to be taken care of. 

She has used her money all her life to snag future favors. Gives someone something or some money,writes it down, and then waits til there is something she wants them to do for her.

I quickly learned not to take anything with strings, andmade very sure it was a gift and not a snare.  She did not like this, but not much she could do about it.

Am staying away for a few days, and maybe her mind will move to something else.

Since her money was most important to her, and her security, maybe we can keep chugging along without her knowing it is gone.

Sunday, November 18, 2012


Making a list and checking it twice...not for gifts but to get my cleaning done.  Tomorrow was my start date, but I began this afternoon so I am ahead some.

Got one room and the front hall clean, where does all the dust come from?  The thing that makes me feel I accomplished the most was I got my closet organized.  Have been digging back in corners for long sleeve shirts, then some days need short.  Anyhow figured the short could be put aside til spring, so moved them to an unused closet.  Now maybe I can find what I want easier.

Hope to be done by Wednesday. Then after a satisfying Thanksgiving dinner that I do not have to cook, I will be ready to put my tree up Friday.

Mission:  Sit back and wait for Christmas and 2012 winding down into the new year.

Saturday, November 17, 2012


I think Mom had a good birthday and enjoyed the Thanksgiving Dinner at Willow Lane Thursday.

Tim and Debbie brought her a cake so we stuffed ourselves with dinner and dessert.

Some of the other kids are coming to see her over the weekend, so her birthday can last a few days.

Thursday, November 8, 2012


Just coming off of a round of a free week of listings. Those things have not all ended yet, and tomorrow begins another offer of 4 days of listing things free.

Have almost 200 items written up to keep running as they end.  Helps make a little more money if you do not have to pay the listing fee for each item.

Sept and Oct have been really good months of selling lots of items, and finding things at auctions that have been worth quite a bit to resell.  Found an old dish for $1.50 and sold it for $55.00. Now that kind of thing perks you up.

I am an Ebay junky.  Jim thinks I am wasting my time cause you do not make much money at it for the time you have to invest in finding things and researching them to see if they are worth anything or what to ask for them.  But it is like a hobby to me.  I enjoy the time I spend doing it.  Even if you do not make much money, most hobbies cost money and I do get a little bit of a return for my hobby.

So I am a happy Ebay junky.

Monday, November 5, 2012


November, though it starts bringing the year to an end, is also the beginning of the Holiday Season.

The month begins for me with our Anniversary every year.  This year, I went to a good auction today.  I love auctions, and especially when I find some really good Ebay sellers. On the 16th I have an appointment to get my hair curled, which it is really needing so that will be a boost. The 20th our club will meet and will be making plans for our Christmas Dinner. (And of course my hair will look good from my perm).

Then comes the 22nd, Thanksgiving.  Turkey, fixings and pumpkin pie (sugar free), yum yum. By then the stores will be in full swing with Christmas decorations and sales for everyone. So November is a pretty good month.

And not to forget any day now I will hear Christmas songs on the radio. One or two stations in the area begin this on November 1, so they may already be playing them.

I know I should be putting some things in here I am thankful for, but I am shallow....not really I do have lots to be thankful for just not in the mood for lists.

Enjoy the Fall Season.

Whoo Hoo, I have got this Blogging thing for right least once a week and sometimes every day.  (Most likely I will dissappear one of these days for a few months.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

NOVEMBER 2, 1957 - NOVEMBER 2, 2012

Time is strange.  When we are 4, it seems forever before it is time to begin school.  Then it seems forever until we get to Jr. High and then through High School.

But then after High School there is a major time warp.

From this:

To this:

Goes by like the blink of an eye

 Pay attention and enjoy the journey!