Sunday, April 12, 2009
What Happened To My Rose Colored Glasses
I have always considered myself a very optimistic person. I expect things to turn out good....glass half full, etc. However the past month or so my mind has began to expect the worst.
I had a routine test a the doctor back in February, and they had me retake it 3 times. Each time I expected it to be alright. Then I was referred to a Hematologist. He took some tests and took me off a medicine I was on that could have caused the blood disorder. I went back in a week very optimistic that this had taken care of it and I would get a normal test. Did not happen.
I had to have a bone marrow test to narrow down the diagnosis. Went back expecting to be put on some pills, but was sent for an intravenous treatment that took over 8 hours. I do not know yet if this was effective, if I have to have another or if I will be given some oral meds for treatment. So I have been bottomed out.
Today I had to revamp my thinking and get myself back on track. I do not like being a pessimist. I have been told that whatever I have is not life threatening, and is treatable. So I am just going to have to get back to my old self, quit worrying about it, recognize this as a passing cloud, and move on. I cannot be moaning and groaning about my self when I have a son that has diabetes and 7 or 8 hearts stents. Or when I have a daughter that has had tripple bypasses and several stents. I have to climb out of my little blue funk and deal with it.
I feel much better in my rose colored glasses......