COLDER, COLDER, AND COLDER

Jackie went with Jessica for the weekend.  Jessica and Robbin are having a Pajama Party with Kati, and Bryants 4 girls. She picked them up here.  They were so excited.  Have not seen them in over a year, and they have really grown.

I used my hand weights for about 5 minutes today.  Need to do this every day or every other day and work up to 20 min.  Need to ride stationary bike and use tread  mill.  I am losing my strength in arms and legs and there is no reason I cannot be exercising.  I pray that after my treatments are going to take the cancer away.   I would like more time if it is Gods will. I am trying to learn to live my life each day instead of "waiting to get well".  If it goes away, it will come back, and I do not want to have wasted the time I have left.

I hope my case will help others.

I need to learn to tolerate winter and not be depressed. Summer will be here in its own time.  God show me how to live .

I want to be able to do the happy dance again.

COLD WINTER GOES ON

Another winter storm this weekend.  But looks like Monday will be okay for my lab.  This is going to be a long winter.  I do not really feel bad except my turned ankle is sore.  But I will be depressed if the cold and rain and snow keeps coming.

I think I will have another scan in a month or so to see if the colon tumors have shrunk more.  I have 5 more treatments on his plan now.  He may change things up after them.

Need prayers that things keep going well.

2019 IS ALMOST HERE

Jessica fixed a good Christmas Dinner.  She has worked on the dinner and decorating for weeks.  Robbin, Kyle, Marjie, Jackie, Jessica, Kati, and me were here for dinner.  Tim and Debbie came by later and visited.

Jess took down decorations today. 

I guess I am ready to see what the new year brings. At this moment I still do not know how my insurance will pay in the chemo pills clinical trial. I am half way through and it is working so I hope I get to continue.  My dr. will do something.  He has all kinds of ideas, so I just need to trust him.

Here is to a good New Year.

TME IS FLYING BY

Missed posting in Oct. had chemo Nov 2 and got Pet Scan results.  All lymph tumors are gone the 2 in colon had shrunk. One shrunk by half one by 2/3. Doctor and whole clinic was elated.  Had chemo again Nov 30 .  He plans on 6 more. Next is Dec. 21.  My ins changes in Jan so am concerned if it will pay for the expensive chemo pills I take for 3 weeks each month or he will have to find funding for the final 5.

O feel so blessed and I have people all over the country praying for me. Even at 80 maybe God will give me a few more years.

They are using my case study. I could find no purpose in life without Jim.   Then I got cancer so I decided God may be through with me on this earth.  But now maybe my case will help others. And he may have more plans for me.
    
We went to Robbins for Thanksgiving. Jess, Jackie, me , Robbin, Kyle, Parker and his girlfriend.

Jess took me to the Charity Bingo even at Hamburger Mary's. Was a cancer fund raiser for the disease Barb's daughter had.

Christmas Jessica is cooking dinner here at home.  Do not know how many can come yet.  Some have other family to go see.

Club Christmas dinner is next Tuesday.  I hope I feel like going.  I have gone to the past 2 meetings. Had not felt like going since I got sick.

I know I will have a rough winter. Have to worry about making treatments, and winter depresses me anyhow, but when you are greatful to be alive, you can handle a little cold and depression.

Jessica  did good on tree.

OCTOBER ALMOST OVER

Time is going by, winter is coming.  Got new furnace and A/C in last week.

Had lab and shot today.  Have next chemo Nov 2, 2018.  Got Pet Scan Friday.  Will probably not get scan results until Nov 2 when see doctor.  Am  nervous, doctors say if other places have shrunk away, the 2 tumors in colon should be shrinking too.  Things have gone so bad the past 2 years that I am scared of everything now.  I pray that they are shrinking.  I feel pretty good except my RA is acting up in my hands.  Probably due to change in weather.

Jessica is back from CA to stay now.  Is going to look for house to buy and begin a pre school.  She has been introducing us to her new Vegan diet.  I could probably be a vegetarian, but could not go vegan.

I feel so good having so many people praying for me.  

Winter marches on....quickly I hope....not my favorite season.

HAVE A RA BATTLE GOING ON

Hands , knees and ankles began hurting 19th.  Had not had a flare up since went off methatrexate and on chemo.  He gave me extra prednisone and I am getting better now.  I will also have a back up of a dose pack for the next flare up.

Dorothy passed away Saturday. Funeral is Wednesday 26th.  Hope to be feeling good.  She had a brain tumor.  Had surgery, but it began go grow again so fast.  We all hoped she would get some time to feel good.  The cousins are all getting in some sort of health issues.  But we are getting older.  She was one of the youngest of us.

My chemo is doing good.  Doctor thinks I am progressing good.

SEPTEMBER IS ALREADY HALF OVER

I would feel good if I was not so clumsy. Last Sat I tripped up patio steps and have been sore and stiff again for the past week.  Is beginning to east up.  Makes me so mad that I have felt good through the chemo and keep myself hurting from stumbling around.  

Marjie had her foot surgery Thurs. She plans on being off only a week although the dr. wanted 2 weeks. She will be on crutches or scooter for 7 to 9 weeks. No weight on it. No driving.  Her work is paying for an Uber when she cannot bum rides from someone.

Jackie has been sick for 2 weeks or so. She is feeling better, but finally went to dr today.

Here is to my week off chemo pills. Do not have to plan that late night snack before my 10 pm pills. And so not have to set my alarm.

Will try to stay on my feet this week.