Well guess what, I do not have breast cancer. I have colon cancer. Had a PET Scan and lit up like a Christmas tree. So I actually have lots of cancer throughout my body. But I have 2 masses in colon.
Set to have colonoscopy July 5th. He wants to make sure I am not ready to have a blockage.
Most likely will have surgery if near blockage or not and have the masses removed.
I have no good choices. I can have chemo and see if it will get some of the stuff that lit up over my whole body, then have surgery. Chemo is brutal and I am 80. I have always said that if I have a bad disease, I want my last part of life to be quality.
I have no symptoms feeling sick anywhere, except my normal RA tiredness. Like My LGL, the dr. has not seen a case like mine. I should not be feeling good.
I have been surprisingly calm since I finally got a diagnosis most of the time.
All of us are going to die, and we do not know when. And neither do I. I may have a few months or a few years. But I know I want them to be as good as they can be.
God is supposed to know best for us. I have to accept this. Now all I can pray for is that he keeps me from being in a panic and not wasting what time I have left.
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