BREAST CANCER CAN CATCH YOU AT ANY AGE.

I should have known the way my life has been going the past year or so that I could not just have a benign lump in my breast.  The Big C after the biopsy.

Now I am in the process of getting surgery set up.  Had consult with regular surgeon.  I liked him.  But girls think I should see a breast surgeon.  And I think it is a good idea.  I was all set to have a lumpectomy as this tumor is high on chest wall and none showed up in mamogram.  So I thought I was lucky. Bahahahaha....me lucky.  If I have that I need radiation and with RA and as tired as it makes me I do not think I can drive to the city every day f0r 4 to 6 weeks.  The regular surgeon is willing to take the whole breast, and I may not need radiation.  

But I may as well get the opinion of someone who does lots of breasts.

I have no family breast cancer history and this just popped up within a week. I am so confused.  So now I wonder if in a year or so it could happen with the other one.

I have had such a struggle this year getting along without Jim.  I have not got back to full strength from being down with RA or depression.  When this happened I was devastated. I need him here to take care of me.  He always took care of me. 

Now some days I do not care if I live and others I would like another maybe 5 years of decent health to get my life together.

I have not even got his memorial bench yet.  I have it ordered, but I wanted to get it and see that it is where and what he wanted.

Please God give me some good health and a little more time.

I miss you so much.  And I need you.