WILL SPRING EVER COME?

Monday will be April.  Better weather here off and on.  Rain past 2 days.  

Have my last regular Chemo April 5 of the 12 scheduled.  Then will start his plan for maintenance to keep tumors from coming back.Praying to have a good summer.  Will be 81 in April.  Maybe I will get a good year or 2 in. Cancer diagnosed last April or May.  Blessed that the treatment beat it back down. Now hope I can do something useful and productive for someone while I am still.

Thankful to God and to the many many people who have prayed for me.  I have been so blessed.

Waiting anxiously for nice weather.

will be watching for my Lilac Bush to bloom.  It is small but I love it.  Grew it from a couple of sticks.

MARCH IS ALMOST HERE.

Hoping better weather will get here soon.  I have felt better some days now.  My ankle is just a little sore.  Sometimes my RA makes my feet or hands stiff.

Looking forward to Spring and warm weather so I can enjoy some things. I need to make the best of this new lease on life, however much it will be.

Would like to find something productive I can do.  

HURRY AND BRING SOME SUNSHINE INTO OUR LIVES.

FEBRUARY 1...GOOD NEWS DAY

Got the results of my Pet Scan I took Wednesday. Dr. says 2 tumors that were in the colon are gone.  I was speechless.  Had been afraid to get results, but was hoping they had shrunk more.  God is great. Thank you Jesus for this news. I still have to take 3 treatments in my plan.  Then he will decide what maintenance treatment.  It may be chemo pills.

I need to build myself up.  I should feel great, but am tired a lot and ankle I turned is not all well yet.  I think part of it is I am depressed.  Maybe because of the weather.

I have been given some more time on this earth, and I need to learn how to use it effectively.  

COLDER, COLDER, AND COLDER

Jackie went with Jessica for the weekend.  Jessica and Robbin are having a Pajama Party with Kati, and Bryants 4 girls. She picked them up here.  They were so excited.  Have not seen them in over a year, and they have really grown.

I used my hand weights for about 5 minutes today.  Need to do this every day or every other day and work up to 20 min.  Need to ride stationary bike and use tread  mill.  I am losing my strength in arms and legs and there is no reason I cannot be exercising.  I pray that after my treatments are going to take the cancer away.   I would like more time if it is Gods will. I am trying to learn to live my life each day instead of "waiting to get well".  If it goes away, it will come back, and I do not want to have wasted the time I have left.

I hope my case will help others.

I need to learn to tolerate winter and not be depressed. Summer will be here in its own time.  God show me how to live .

I want to be able to do the happy dance again.

COLD WINTER GOES ON

Another winter storm this weekend.  But looks like Monday will be okay for my lab.  This is going to be a long winter.  I do not really feel bad except my turned ankle is sore.  But I will be depressed if the cold and rain and snow keeps coming.

I think I will have another scan in a month or so to see if the colon tumors have shrunk more.  I have 5 more treatments on his plan now.  He may change things up after them.

Need prayers that things keep going well.

2019 IS ALMOST HERE

Jessica fixed a good Christmas Dinner.  She has worked on the dinner and decorating for weeks.  Robbin, Kyle, Marjie, Jackie, Jessica, Kati, and me were here for dinner.  Tim and Debbie came by later and visited.

Jess took down decorations today. 

I guess I am ready to see what the new year brings. At this moment I still do not know how my insurance will pay in the chemo pills clinical trial. I am half way through and it is working so I hope I get to continue.  My dr. will do something.  He has all kinds of ideas, so I just need to trust him.

Here is to a good New Year.

TME IS FLYING BY

Missed posting in Oct. had chemo Nov 2 and got Pet Scan results.  All lymph tumors are gone the 2 in colon had shrunk. One shrunk by half one by 2/3. Doctor and whole clinic was elated.  Had chemo again Nov 30 .  He plans on 6 more. Next is Dec. 21.  My ins changes in Jan so am concerned if it will pay for the expensive chemo pills I take for 3 weeks each month or he will have to find funding for the final 5.

O feel so blessed and I have people all over the country praying for me. Even at 80 maybe God will give me a few more years.

They are using my case study. I could find no purpose in life without Jim.   Then I got cancer so I decided God may be through with me on this earth.  But now maybe my case will help others. And he may have more plans for me.
    
We went to Robbins for Thanksgiving. Jess, Jackie, me , Robbin, Kyle, Parker and his girlfriend.

Jess took me to the Charity Bingo even at Hamburger Mary's. Was a cancer fund raiser for the disease Barb's daughter had.

Christmas Jessica is cooking dinner here at home.  Do not know how many can come yet.  Some have other family to go see.

Club Christmas dinner is next Tuesday.  I hope I feel like going.  I have gone to the past 2 meetings. Had not felt like going since I got sick.

I know I will have a rough winter. Have to worry about making treatments, and winter depresses me anyhow, but when you are greatful to be alive, you can handle a little cold and depression.

Jessica  did good on tree.