WINTER OF DISCONTENT CONTINUES

Monday, 7th, I will again attend the funeral of a friend I have been in club with for over 60 years. She has been fighting cancer and lost . We had a group of 13. We lost Alice to Alzheimers, and in the nursing home. Mary Lou passed away about 3 years or so ago. Nelda in January, and now Martha. 

We have made some good memories over the years. Is sad to lose friends.

THE WINTER OF SADDNESS

Tomorrow I will attend the funeral of a lady I went to club with from the 60's til her health failed and she could no longer go.

Today I went to visit a friend who lost her husband  a few weeks ago. Her son has been battling cancer and lost. He is now terminal and she is taking care of him. She also has a mother who has been in hospital who is in upper 90's. She is in Nursing home now getting therapy so she can get back home.  I cannot imagine how my friend is dealing with caring for her son and worrying about her Mom. She has not even had time to grieve for her husband  yet.

This will not end up being a good winter.

God comfort and be with them all.

LOTS OF HEAVY HEARTS

Today I attended the funeral of a good friends husband .  She is a member of a club I have been in for over 50 years. We  began by losing spouses.  We have also lost 2 members in the past few years.

I guess when you have been together as long as we have, loss of members or their spouses is bound to happen.

Randy's services will be Saturday, and it is going to be very hard.  He has been part of our family so long that he is like one of our own children. He and our granddaughter, Jessica have always been close.

The hurt is double...losing Randy, and  Jessica's  pain from losing him.  It is hard when you cannot make things better for someone. You just have to let their grief run its course. And pray that she get some healing as time goes on.

God be with us and help us through that day.

JAN 6, 2016 R.I.P. RANDY

We lost Randy this morning around 6:30 a.m.  He has been in Hospice over 2 weeks.  Jessica has only left a couple times for a short period and Jackie was there.  Both have been there most of the time.  Many of his family and friends got to visit him while he was still alert.

Jessica and her Dad were very close. Will take her a long time to do some healing.  When she is able to begin some semblance of her normal life back where she can work and be with her friends it will comfort her. And she can begin to come back, not as before as the loss will always be there. But she is strong and she will be ok.

     GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN.

A CHRISTMAS OF A DIFFERENT KIND

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve. This year is coming to an end and has not been a good year.

This is going to be a sad Christmas. Randy is in a hospice and Jessica and many family members have been with her during the past week as she waits for him to leave us.  

He will leave a large empty place not only in her life, but in all of us.  

Prayers for strength for her as she faces one of the biggest losses in her life.

BAD NEWS

Randy had a bad set back this week.  Has been having pain and hoped it was nerve pain.  Had a major bleed Thurs 10th.  Scan found that he has had a tumor come back in his throat, one in mouth and in lungs.  The did a cath procedure and found the vein that was feeding the tumor and causing the bleed. Got it stopped.  Getting his pain under control.  Hopefully he will go home Monday.  If he can keep his pain under control with home meds Jess can take care of him there. If not he will have to go to a Hospice Facility.  Hoping he can spend most of his last day at home. Doctors estimate 2 to 3 months.  But they just guess. To everything there is a season....................

COME ON BABY WHITE FIGHTERS....GET YOUR GAME ON

Have another lab Fri 20th which I hope has climbed a little.  Then Monday I go see Dr. Stephenson to get the resulsts of my bone marrow biopsy.   My wish is that numbers are up enough I can give my RA meds more time to bring them back instead of having to take that other stronger"poison.

Jim has not felt good and he is getting worse with one thing or another.  This is going to be a long cold winter.

Life can seem so unfair.  Then you look around at others that are 10 times worse than you.

Dance and smile.

DECEMBER 13 UPDATE......

Dr. S thinks I can continue with my RA drug to bring neutrophils back to normal.  He is asking her to raise it to 10 1 day a week instead of 8. Start tomorrow.  Oct was up, do not have Nov lab results yet, will get the Thurs, and have December lab.